Yes, it's been a while since I've written a blog post, and many things have happened to me, mostly on the inside, and all of them good. The most stunning is that I have begun channeling my spirit guides, writing my questions and the answers I receive. The writing is an integral part of the process for me. If I don't write, I tend to wander off and basically receive nothing. If I'm sitting with a notebook, a pen, and a question, the connection takes hold and the conversation begins....
That's where it was when I was just working with the Akashic Records and the Masters & Teachers, but I wanted to do more, find out more....I signed up for an 8 week class with Lindsay McGowen (lindsaymcgowen.com), wanting to get more grounded in what might be possible and how to do it. The class was wildly successful, and now I'm in contact with a whole bunch of guides, and a number of councils connected to various parts of my life and work. I have to tell you, this changes things....
For one thing, I now feel partnered. I have spent decades (decades!) carrying on in my journals about how I want a partner, and how whoever might have appeared isn't it. I have made untold numbers of men wrong because they couldn't be who I wanted them to be, couldn't give me what I wanted. Guess what, no human being could, so now I can just let people be who they are, and enjoy my time with them fully....I now have a raft of partners who are dedicated to my spiritual evolution, who see a much larger perspective than I do, who are willing to share it with me at my request, and who beam love at me all the time. This makes it a lot easier to let go of the old patterns. For instance, I put in quite a bit of time and focus, connecting to my telepathy guide, Glicksteen. Loving our connection as much as I did, I got worried that it would be cut short before I wanted it to (old, not-quite-dead story of my life). I went to Glicksteen with my discomfort, and he said, "You do not need to fall into the pattern that has formed your earthly relationships, and attach it to me. We have quite a bit more we can do together, as you will know. I'm here." And that was that. This was the opportunity to go beyond my history, and recognize that I am in a new world. The old story only shows up if I bring it with me, .... and I don't have to.
So now I have the sense that I am partnered, that I can go beyond my history, and I have access to information about whatever I'm interested in, and I'm being seen with loving interest....For me, this is heaven on earth. But now what? What do I do with all this? How do I share it, or the fruits of it? What does it bring, in a larger sense?
I've been working on setting up a newsletter, and not getting very far with it, given that I had all kinds of fear about showing up in public. I finally connected to the guides who were willing to help me with it. They announced themselves as "Pegasus," the winged horse of inspiration, and let me tell you, it was no small space they were speaking from. They suggested I drop into "the amphitheatre of the heart," (which gives you an idea of the size of them and the volume of their voice), and said their task with me was to take me places I would not be able to go otherwise. My job was to write about it, as clearly as I can. So here I am, and the newsletter is taking shape.
There's quite a lot going on here, under the hood, so to speak...For one thing, this is all taking me right outside the separation model. Having experiences like this make it really clear that we are not alone. I am now in a working relationship with a Sidhe guide, an angelic guide, a collective of star beings, an another group of star beings who feel more like space than like a collective, and I'm sure there's more to come. Given that, who am I? Or to be more specific, when I am writing a public piece, who's talking?
I'm trying to find my seat on this winged horse....Am I a stenography package, or a passenger, or a rider? Am I just taking dictation from the wiser ones? No, that's not it, I have more to contribute than that. Am I a rider, who directs the course of the journey? Not quite yet, though maybe later...... So passenger....a kind of tourist, for now, getting the lay of the land, and sending letters home, with stories of my adventures and the expansion of my understanding.
This is definitely a different world than the one I grew up in, that all/most of us grew up in. This is stepping away from the separation model with big long strides. But isn't that what we're here to do now? Isn't that part of our job, to begin to establish a new world, right alongside the old one, the one that holds so much destruction and decay? Let's not waste time pointing fingers of blame, or fighting with the ones who are so entrenched that all that can happen is that the war goes on forever. Instead, let's enlarge our vision, by whatever means we can, and go from there....
(For a slightly different context, read Charles Eisenstein's "The More Beautiful World Our Hearts Know is Possible." No woo-woo, but same thought.)
What if we knew that we could ask for help and get it, from loving and knowledgable beings who were intent on a wholeness that (of course) includes us? What if we knew that our arrogance in thinking we are the top of the heap is no longer viable? (Trump is the poster boy for that lesson...) What if inclusivity was so clearly the way to go that we could no longer exclude anything from our sense of what is alive on Earth? What if we knew that all forms, animal, vegetable, mineral, and beyond, have sentience, information, and love...and that we can use our attention, gratitude, and love to access all of that? What if....?