SEEKING...

Temple Grandin, in Animals Make Us Human, writes about SEEKING (her caps) as a core emotion system, which means that "when you stimulate the brain systems for one of the core emotions, you always get the same behaviors from the animal."  It starts moving forward, sniffing, and exploring its environment.  SEEKING combines wanting something good, looking forward to something good, and curiosity.

I got interested in this today because I was wondering what makes my clinic work so much fun.  I thought it was probably that when I work, I SEEK.  I'm wanting something good for my client, I'm looking forward to something good for my client, and I'm curious about what there is to discover as a pathway.  Plus, of course, I don't already know, so it's all new, every time.  I know that what I do has an effect, but I don't know what that effect is or will be.  I know that I can go where I need to, but I don't know where that is until I go there.  Sometimes not even then, if it's one of those places that has no words....

Part of what makes the SEEKING pleasurable is my sense that I and my client are safe, held in the spacious heart.  There's not a lot of risk...hardly any, in fact.  We are entangled on a quantum level (or maybe that's just reality), so I can trust that if it feels good to me, it's probably good for them too, though it might be unaccustomed or strange.  If it doesn't feel good to them, I can hold it all in the spacious heart until it comes to rest in peace, and they feel it too....

And then I start to wonder about how our orientation to SEEKING gets distorted....How we sometimes lose the orientation that would tell us that there's something good to look forward to, and instead get lost in the conviction that disappointment is inevitable.....What IS that? and how can I clear it?  Is it just the endless replay of history, what we choose to remember, the old stories, the old unreleased hurts?

What if we could clear up our SEEKING, so that it was a pleasure from the outset?  It would be, if we weren't immediately seeking the source of danger.....What if it's the stress level we are often under, that makes us hyper alert to danger, so that we're on the lookout for where threat is looming....What if we could hold that vigilance in the heart space, and let it be changed by the action of the field, calmed and peaceful....  What if it was OK to be with what is, as it is, with no action required of us, just the commitment to stay in the spacious heart.....

Then maybe we could return to real SEEKING, looking forward to getting something really good, with curiosity and acceptance.....