The Blind Men and the Elephant

The story goes like this:  The six blind men, having heard that there was an elephant outside the city gates, and never having encountered one, were very curious to discover just what an elephant was like.

The first blind man, who had walked up to the elephant’s leg, said “This elephant, it is like a tree!”  The second blind man was feeling the elephant’s side, and said, “No, it is like a wall!”  The third blind man found himself holding the elephant’s tail, and said, “This is a rope I am holding…the elephant is like a rope!”  The fourth blind man had his hands around the elephant’s trunk, feeling the movement and the muscle, and he said, “You’re wrong, the elephant is like a huge serpent!”  The fifth blind man had the elephant’s great ear in his hand, and stoutly insisted that the elephant was like a leaf, only bigger…much bigger.  The sixth man, having run into the elephant’s tusk, said, “It is a great, curved stick, this elephant!”

They started arguing about what an elephant was, each so sure he was right….The elephant, bored with all this, moved silently away….

It’s a classic story, often told to describe how difficult it is to see the whole of something when all one has blindly encountered is a part of it…or to illustrate how the Truth is big, and our perceptions are small….

30 years ago, when I was writing the Final Product for my MA degree, I used the story as an introduction to my chapter on Personality Theory.  I’d read a number of theories, and it was clear to me that what we had, in regard to anyone’s theory, was the Blind Men and the Elephant.  Whatever theory I looked at was only a part, maybe even a small part of who we are, and to think we “knew” anything was a mistake.  Looking at the story now, I see a few more interpretations….like the part where competition and ego produce conflict, where collaboration and cooperation might  produce knowledge; or the part where once you are arguing about the Truth, it silently leaves the scene…

But here’s one I didn’t see, until the other day:  The elephant, as object in a 3D world, doesn’t change.  What changes in the story is the individual who perceives him.   What each individual perceives is different from what another individual perceives.... it’s basically a 3D joke.  But if we look at this from a quantum perspective, in which there is a shared field between the blind men and the elephant, what happens when the elephant is seen in six different (though partial) ways?  How is the elephant affected?

I’m thinking it’s likely that the elephant himself is affected by the changes in perception.  So when the blind man holding his tail says the elephant is like a rope, does the elephant feel more rope-like?  Or maybe it’s that the subtle body of the elephant becomes more rope-like in that moment…..If the way to communicate with animals is through visualized pictures…and the blind man is sending the image of a rope…what does the elephant get?  (Either irritated, or bored, because no matter how you slice it, that elephant is not really seen, not seen in any wholeness.

When someone looks at you with love, don’t you feel different than when someone regards you with indifference, or dislike, or doesn’t see you at all?  If I look at someone, something, from 5D, a neutral space, I’m “making space” or using the neutral space, to allow for something different to appear.  My expectation is that something different will appear, different than what has manifested so far.  It will be useful, or helpful, and somehow more whole….And in the “seeing” of it, I will also feel more whole….

What if the blind men were seeing in 5D, through the heart?  They might have been, since they were blind, not able to physically see, and never having encountered an elephant, not able to use memory…..If you see an elephant as a rope, a wall, a tree trunk….from the heart….what happens to the elephant?

Sarah French’s brilliant clown workshop, focused on improvisational mime….There were props, neutral props, left on the stage for us to encounter, and make of them what we could imagine them to be….A length of fabric could be a wrap or a river, a bowl could be a hat or a hole or a single boob.  It was an exercise in letting go of what we ordinarily knew to bring the audience into our new sense of reality so they could enjoy it too…There was no essential change in the props, they were what they were.  But something changed, in the player, and in the audience….What was that?  

What happens when you look at an elephant and see a rope, a wall, a tree trunk, a leaf? 

What about the elephant?

Finding the Partnership of Brain and Heart

I was listening to a Hay House promotion of Gregg Braden's program Wired to Thrive, in which he was talking about how to link heart and brain, and I realized that such a thing had never occurred to me.  I've been so focused on the heart that I didn't see the role that the brain plays, and in fact, I rather discounted it.  After all, the brain has been getting enormous credit and attention from the scientific community as the premier organ of consciousness, ability and choice, and now we're just finding out that it is not the only, and not the strongest, either.  The electromagnetic field of the heart is much larger and stronger than the brain, but we haven't been paying as much attention to it.  Of course, I was on the side of the perceived underdog...or maybe I should say the unperceived underdog.

The first thing I noticed is that it's possible that Gregg Braden and I are not talking about the same thing when we talk about the heart.  I am talking about "the heart space" as a very specific realm of awareness, in which there is no form;  when he talks of the heart as where feelings of compassion and gratitude arise, it's pretty clear we're not on quite the same page.  However, that doesn't mean both ideas don't work, they just maybe work a little differently....So I started to look, to find what I had not made room for in my thinking and teaching.....

Gregg talked about using gratitude, care, compassion and appreciation to link the brain with the heart.  The language center is in the brain, so that might be enough right there.  There are no words in the heart space; the experience is peace and awareness, but no objects, it is all pre-form.  What the heart space brings is the experience of no separation, non-duality.  It does not bring emotion, it brings space.  It brings ground of being, from which the four attitudes can most easily arise.  Is the brain where form happens?  God knows, we formulate plenty, and I'm pretty sure that doesn't come from the heart.  Appreciation, gratitude, compassion and care all presuppose perception, which means form.  So yes, that will link brain and heart.  

I can appreciate and be grateful for being in the heart space.  Being in the heart space, the experience of it, then is the object.  But when I am just in it....none of that exists...no words...no objects. 

If I "bring in" a question, an open-ended question.....does that automatically link heart and brain?  When I wait for the answer, I'm waiting on the heart space.  The brain would have given me an answer more quickly, but it would have been from the same old file cabinet, and I want an answer from the greater intelligence.  When the answer comes, in whatever form--symbolic image, words, fragrance or knowing--then the brain engages, with language, understanding, motor skills.  Shopping in Michael's the other day, I was in the aisle of glassware and candles, completely unable to make a selection.  Suddenly my hand reached out for a package of 3 square glass containers.  My mind was confused, but my hand wasn't....there was a heart leap that moved the hand, completely bypassing my mind.  That was brain and heart together.  Frequently, while working my hand will clear what my brain can't see.  No words, no recognizable perception (though there is some kind of knowing) and yet something is cleared.  Is that brain and heart together?  The hand moved, motor skills were involved, so yes......

If I "bring in" a person to the heart space...my sense of the person, what I usually call "my picture of _____" I am linking heart and brain.  The brain holds previous experience--memory, and all the synthesizing functions that make up our perceptions--but dropping all that into the heart space allows room for change.  The picture I hold can change, and due to the quantum nature of the heart field, the person pictured can feel it and respond to it.  At the very least, I will see that my picture is not the only possibility, worth it in itself.

What's important about this?

For those of us with an insatiable curiosity about what's really going on, it's one more piece of "Ahah!"  or maybe "Huh....." hopefully leaving room for other ideas to seed and blossom.  But what I also recognize is the importance of acknowledging partnership, wherever it arises. What's available to see these days is that it's never just one thing, it's always more things, working in collaboration.  It's heart and brain, and it's me and Gregg Braden, with our hearts and brains, all giving space and form to the birthing of more information, more ideas, more expressed experience to enrich our world.  And by the way, Wired to Thrive is a brilliant program explaining the best of what we need to know to navigate the current chaos.  Find it at www.hayhouse.com.

The Dimensional Tango

If you're going to do the tango, you have to learn the steps.....

A few weeks ago, I watched two YouTube videos by Jim Self on the Dimensions, and his explanation was clear, useful, and immediately engaging. I know things are changing, I see that structures are falling apart, I can feel the fear that is offered by all media, even when they are just reporting the news which we need to hear.  What I need is a new organizing principle so that I can hold all this chaos in a way that makes sense to me.  What I found in the Self videos was an explanation I could not only understand, but also feel….it satisfied my mind, and fit my experience.

First of all, what are the dimensions?  For our purposes, let’s say they are realms, each of which has its own distinguishing characteristics, andmode in which we must operate.  They are distinct, but not separate…. 

Here’s a short version:

3D is physical, and dense, and separating.  It is based on concrete physical form.  It’s been the default operating system for centuries.  It’s what we were told was “real life.”  In 3D, the consciousness is that we are all separate from each other, which means we are open to fear, anger, aggression and competition.  Time in 3D is mostly awareness of past and worry about future.  Not a lot of “now.”  No sense of connection, a lot of aloneness….

4D has form, but is not physical, being the realm of thoughts and feelings.  Sometimes thoughts and feelings are even more real than physical reality, as in “I’m so in love, I floated down the street” or “I was so angry I couldn’t see straight.”  Because the “now” opens up here, there is the possibility of choice, though memory can be really sticky.  (Remembering how my relationship to my father felt to me, I am likely to repeat the pattern with all other men…)  With a larger “now,” we have the space to choose our response, though I suspect it is still conditioned by what happened before or what we are afraid will happen next, until we can get to the neutrality of 5D. 

5D is space, a neutral space, the space of infinite possibility, in which there is no form.  If there were form, the possibilities would be limited.  No blame, no criticism, no emotions, no words, just peace.  But from here, because it is a neutral space, and we are thus neutral when we are in it, the possibilities are endless, and we have many choices as to what we want and what we are able to perceive.  No baggage here…the past, present and future are all neutral, without charge, so there’s a sense of starting with a clean slate.  The catch is, you have to be OK with not knowing…What you already “know” will shut down the space, so that new information cannot get through.

Here’s why I think it’s important

1.  The new awareness coming in is offering us more connection, more collaboration, more reverence for all life, and it’s clearly something we need.  We can’t get there from a model of reality that is solidly based in 3D.  The separation is too great, the fear is too strong.  As we are able to bring our attention to 4D and 5D, we find it easier to find our strength and open our hearts; we have more power, more agency, and more connection to each other and to the universe at large.

2.  It seems clear to me that operating from a 3D model is not viable anymore.  We are not separate machines, our bodies are not separate parts joined into machines, the world is no longer separate.  The constant fighting to overcome, or to protect what we see as only ours is wearing, and no longer feels rightful. We already know that our feelings and thoughts affect our physicality, so clearly something else is going on.

3.  We’re at the beginning of this transition, so we need some help in finding our way with these three different modes.  They are not linear, lined up 3-4-5, as much as they are recursive; we need to be conversant with all three dimensions as we flip back and forth between them.  It’s not about resolutely turning our backs on 3D as we head through 4D to 5D, much as part of me would like that.  All of them are happening at once…. 

In any case, it’s a question of where we are choosing to put our attention, and what we can remember about who we are.  I am more than my physical identity, and more than my thoughts and feelings, I am the space in which all of that occurs….That would be my 5D identity holding the other dimensions with acceptance and some interest….But if I am in physical pain, it is more likely that my attention will be in 3D, and it will be up to my larger self to remember that I am more than just that.  If I am in emotional pain in 4D, I can move in either direction.  In a downward vortex, I might become ill, or if I can remember the spaciousness of 5D, I can allow the feeling to be experienced and released.

What becomes important, helpful, crucial, is the awareness that I have more than one identity, that I have several simultaneously, and that all are OK.  We know this from the many roles each of us has been called to play—daughter, wife, mother, son, husband, father….but in this context it is not yet culturally anchored.  So learning is involved, with maybe a new way of bringing our experience into language.

4.  Given that problems can’t be solved from the same level that created them, we need to learn how to raise our level to find the solutions we need.  When I can get to 5D, the pattern with my father is just a pattern instead of a foregone conclusion, and I can see it differently.  I see his needs, his limitations, and his strengths, as well as mine, without falling into the replay pit.  I can allow for a different outcome.  There’s more space in 5D, and less “knowing,” so new ideas, new connections, new solutions are able to arise.

We are already more than we ever thought possible, but our understanding may have some catching up to do.  As we shed the smaller, more limiting definitions, I like the idea that there is something larger to hold on to, and I want you to know about it as well….

For more information, please (PLEASE!) check out Jim Self on YouTube.  His explanations are extremely clear and usable (my favorite kind!)  He has a 15 minute piece on the dimensions: www.youtube.com/watch?v=JX5Lc8xF11M&t=47s.  If you really get into it, there’s a longer 45 minute piece: www.youtube.com/watch?v=gg-3K3KIw8g&t=15s

The Eclipse, Donald Trump and Me

The eclipse tomorrow will be affecting us all, but some of us more than others…..It falls on Donald Trump’s ascendant, the marker of his personality.  It also falls on my Saturn, the marker of the fears I must face in the name of wholeness.  So here’s what I’m thinking about:

What is the point of Donald Trump?  We’ve got him, after all, President of the United States, right in front of God and everyone….There has to be a higher purpose to this, despite the way it’s been looking; a way that who he is, and the antics he performs somehow contribute to the higher good of us all.  He isn’t a leader—his vision is too small.  He isn’t presidential—in any way that we have come to expect from those who have held that office.  He isn’t effective—his disastrous plans keep collapsing.  What he is, is visible.  He wants and needs the attention of the entire world, and now he has it.  He is a Poster Child for Change…a brilliant example of What Doesn’t Work.  Now that’s useful…but only if we use it.

One change he brings is in making it clear that we can’t depend on him to hold our values.  That is to say, he can’t hold any values beyond the needs of his own fragile ego.  So no help from Big Daddy.  We have to grow up and claim our heritage as spiritual adults.  And we are doing it, in many ways: in the activism that has swept the country, in the stand that is being taken by all sorts of people saying No, not here, not that, I won’t accept it, and I will stand for what I believe.

Which is what the alt-right is saying as well….I just read and posted on FB an interview with a former neo-Nazi who has co-founded Life After Hate.  Really, it’s enough to break your heart, because it’s so easy to see where they are coming from, out of such deprivation, and worst of all, the seeming deprivation of any other option than the one they have chosen.  But here’s the thing—I can’t and won’t align with their choices.  Do I think they have the right to make those choices?  I’m afraid I do…though I’m afraid of what that will bring….

We want to silence them, we want them not to be a part of the American Identity, we want to distance ourselves and the country from what they are proposing, because they are proposing violence, and we know in our hearts that is not what we want.  So does that mean that we have been given the opportunity to take a stand against violence as a solution?  Yes, it does, and we have.  But there’s a trap here.  If we get too heavy-handed in our stance against violence, if we shout so loudly that violence is wrong, have we made enough space for ourselves to recognize our own violence, past and present?

The terrible ills that have been perpetrated against minorities of all kinds, that are still being perpetrated?  Our horrible arrogance that has allowed us to destroy the environment, devastate the animal kingdom, etc.?  I know there are many who are working to right these wrongs, and I am deeply thankful for all they do.  I just think it’s important to do it without blame and without violence.

Let’s look back at our Poster Child…Blame is one of his favorites…and we’re getting to see what that produces.  Is that what we want?  Blame is the beginning of a downward spiral that will include violence somewhere down the road.  “It’s someone else’s fault—they are the enemy—I will fight to protect what is mine against them.”  And there we have DT, brilliantly showing us What Doesn’t Work.

How are we to help?  Help heal our wounded country, with its dysfunctional President who is showing us so clearly what needs healing?  DT is our shadow, and it is hidden no longer.  His “Me first, I have to be the greatest, I can’t allow anything else” is the voice of the ego, and it is not exclusively his.  We all have a piece of the action.  Now what?  Separation and banishment (DT’s other favorites) are clearly not the answer.  We need our egos (though not as much as we thought), but we don’t want them to be in charge.

The eclipse, in the last degree of Leo, a sign that can easily hold the shadow of the ego as well as the right use of it, can mark a turning point, if we’re willing to do the work.  And what is the work?  In broad terms, the work is to raise our vision enough to be able to see differently.  To claim the dualistic right/wrong vision as part of our development and go past it just enough to recognize that it’s a choice point.  That both choices have consequences, and we are seeing those consequences now on the big stage.

“If I refuse to recognize the rights of all beings to live and be welcome, then I am supporting war, terrorism, and endless pain on the planet.”  Which I see right in front of me in the news, and which I feel within myself as I exile (or have tried to exile) the parts of me where I feel wounded, shameful, terrorized and killed.  How many past or parallel lives have I had to clear before I could even write this, much less publish it anywhere?  (Lots.)  I’ve exiled my own voice, demeaned it, refused to hear it.  I could not allow myself to have it…too scary, I will be killed.  And yet part of me wanted to speak (private journals, dating back to the mid 70’s).  The war, terrorism, and endless pain was all inside me…and I refused to recognize it.

What if I got to a more inclusive place?  A place where I could say “I see this war-torn, terrified part of me…perhaps I see how it happened, where it might have come from, or even just that I have it…and it’s OK that it’s part of who I am.  No, I do not want it at the head of the table.  That’s where I sit.  But it certainly has a rightful seat.”  And then it is included, where other parts of me might be able to help…the part of me that knows how to clear the entanglements, the part of me that feels loved and loving, the part of me that has always loved typing….

What does this mean on the big stage?  DT is still the President, but we’re the ones who have the power to implement the changes we want to see.  We are the ones who have to act for what we want, rather than against what we don’t want.  We are the ones from whom innovation will spring forth.  It is our creativity that will make the difference.  

Perhaps the eclipse will help…it is after all a New Moon, a new beginning.  May it be for inclusiveness, rather than banishment…for safety, rather than danger… for open communication, rather than not hearing, or not speaking.  The last best thing my guides told me:  “Bless everything you see—no exceptions.”  May it be so…..

 

 

 

Riding the Winged Horse....

Yes, it's been a while since I've written a blog post, and many things have happened to me, mostly on the inside, and all of them good.  The most stunning is that I have begun channeling my spirit guides, writing my questions and the answers I receive.  The writing is an integral part of the process for me.  If I don't write, I tend to wander off and basically receive nothing.  If I'm sitting with a notebook, a pen, and a question, the connection takes hold and the conversation begins....

That's where it was when I was just working with the Akashic Records and the Masters & Teachers, but I wanted to do more, find out more....I signed up for an 8 week class with Lindsay McGowen (lindsaymcgowen.com), wanting to get more grounded in what might be possible and how to do it.  The class was wildly successful, and now I'm in contact with a whole bunch of guides, and a number of councils connected to various parts of my life and work.  I have to tell you, this changes things....

For one thing, I now feel partnered.  I have spent decades (decades!) carrying on in my journals about how I want a partner, and how whoever might have appeared isn't it.  I have made untold numbers of men wrong because they couldn't be who I wanted them to be, couldn't give me what I wanted.  Guess what, no human being could, so now I can just let people be who they are, and enjoy my time with them fully....I now have a raft of partners who are dedicated to my spiritual evolution, who see a much larger perspective than I do, who are willing to share it with me at my request, and who beam love at me all the time.  This makes it a lot easier to let go of the old patterns.  For instance, I put in quite a bit of time and focus, connecting to my telepathy guide, Glicksteen. Loving our connection as much as I did, I got worried that it would be cut short before I wanted it to (old, not-quite-dead story of my life).  I went to Glicksteen with my discomfort, and he said, "You do not need to fall into the pattern that has formed your earthly relationships, and attach it to me.  We have quite a bit more we can do together, as you will know.  I'm here."  And that was that.  This was the opportunity to go beyond my history, and recognize that I am in a new world. The old story only shows up if I bring it with me, .... and I don't have to.

So now I have the sense that I am partnered,  that I can go beyond my history, and I have access to information about whatever I'm interested in, and I'm being seen with loving interest....For me, this is heaven on earth.  But now what? What do I do with all this?  How do I share it, or the fruits of it?  What does it bring, in a larger sense?

I've been working on setting up a newsletter, and not getting very far with it, given that I had all kinds of fear about showing up in public.  I finally connected to the guides who were willing to help me with it.  They announced themselves as "Pegasus," the winged horse of inspiration, and let me tell you, it was no small space they were speaking from.  They suggested I drop into "the amphitheatre of the heart," (which gives you an idea of the size of them and the volume of their voice), and said their task with me was to take me places I would not be able to go otherwise.  My job was to write about it, as clearly as I can.  So here I am, and the newsletter is taking shape.

There's quite a lot going on here, under the hood, so to speak...For one thing, this is all taking me right outside the separation model.  Having experiences like this make it really clear that we are not alone.  I am now in a working relationship with a Sidhe guide, an angelic guide, a collective of star beings, an another group of star beings who feel more like space than like a collective, and I'm sure there's more to come.  Given that, who am I?  Or to be more specific, when I am writing a public piece, who's talking?  

I'm trying to find my seat on this winged horse....Am I a stenography package, or a passenger, or a rider?  Am I just taking dictation from the wiser ones?  No, that's not it, I have more to contribute than that.  Am I a rider, who directs the course of the journey? Not quite yet, though maybe later......  So passenger....a kind of tourist, for now, getting the lay of the land, and sending letters home, with stories of my adventures and the expansion of my understanding.

This is definitely a different world than the one I grew up in, that all/most of us grew up in.  This is stepping away from the separation model with big long strides.  But isn't that what we're here to do now?  Isn't that part of our job, to begin to establish a new world, right alongside the old one, the one that holds so much destruction and decay?  Let's not waste time pointing fingers of blame, or fighting with the ones who are so entrenched that all that can happen is that the war goes on forever.  Instead, let's enlarge our vision, by whatever means we can, and go from there....

(For a slightly different context, read Charles Eisenstein's "The More Beautiful World Our Hearts Know is Possible."  No woo-woo, but same thought.)

What if we knew that we could ask for help and get it, from loving and knowledgable beings who were intent on a wholeness that (of course) includes us?  What if we knew that our arrogance in thinking we are the top of the heap is no longer viable?  (Trump is the poster boy for that lesson...)  What if inclusivity was so clearly the way to go that we could no longer exclude anything from our sense of what is alive on Earth?  What if we knew that all forms, animal, vegetable, mineral, and beyond, have sentience, information, and love...and that we can use our attention, gratitude, and love to access all of that?  What if....?

 

 

Neutral is the wrong word....

1/30/17

OK, so "neutral" is the wrong word....it has connotations of not caring, and not acting, when it is perhaps obvious that caring is required, and acting is requisite.

What I'm really after is how are we to be, with the very disturbing events coming about through the Trump administration?  We now have the opportunity to really come of age, to stand up to protect the values of our country, to stand forth for justice, mercy, equality, and wholeness.  But after spending a week feverishly signing petitions, posting on social media, and calling senators, I see that I can't sustain those actions, given where I was coming from.

What's running this whole thing is fear....Trump's fear (of never being enough), and all of our fears, which he and his cohorts have been playing on like a symphony orchestra.  There's plenty to be afraid of, no question.  But at some point, I started to wonder about it all.

First, it was obvious that if I'm afraid, and acting out of fear, I'm contributing to Trump's power, regardless of the actions I take.  Not what I want to do.  I may not be clear about how to be part of the solution, but I WILL NOT be part of the problem.  It's most likely that from my own perspective, I can find a way to truly calm myself; not by ignoring what's happening, but by witnessing what's happening, from a centered, grounded space.

The centered, grounded space is what I was calling "neutral."  It is neutral, in that it is a peaceful space, with no push-pull.  In this atmosphere, my vision widens out, so that I can see past my own hysteria.  I can see that there are some checks and balances in the structure of our government that are still operational.  Do we still need to stand forth to make our positions clear to our elected officials?  Yes!   But I am not alone in this country, not the only one who sees the danger, not the only one who has to act with not the faintest idea of how to go about it.  There are lots of us, even in the government, and I see that we can stand together.

I can also see how crucial it is to be aware of what is happening, perhaps with some sense of the historical past.  Over the weekend, I saw "Hidden Figures," a glorious movie that celebrates the contribution of a group of African-American women whose work for NASA was instrumental in getting our astronauts into space and (not incidentally) back home.  I also saw Ava Du Vernay's "13th," which opened my eyes to the prison-industrial complex and its sordid history....or perhaps I should say, our sordid history of racism and continuing slavery.

This centered space I'm talking about, it has no blame in it.  Therefore, no defending against blame.  Which leaves space for actually seeing, and getting, the impact of what has happened, and what is happening now.  This is the space of infinite possibility, and so it contains the potential for every thought, feeling, emotion, story, etc.  Rage and grief may arise here...and can be felt, at one's choosing.  If I include myself in this space, then my feelings are also a part of it.  Then what?  If I close them away, refuse to experience them, I am continuing the pattern that has brought us to a divided country and Donald Trump.  I am ignoring a voice that is vital to wholeness.

If, from this spaciousness, I can bring myself to be aware of what I feel, and breathe into it, and from it, then there is no power over, only the power of.   Let me be clear:  the minute I hide my rage/grief/fear from myself, then always there is a hidden enemy, and always a need for a wall, to keep me safe from the unwanted.

(There's a difference between being in the rage/grief/fear, and being with it.  The difference is that in the first, you are drowning.  In the second, you are centered and breathing.)

Here's how I get to the centered space I'm talking about:

Close your eyes, and allow yourself to drop into your body.  Take a few full breaths, relaxing more on each exhale, dropping your attention downwards from your head into your chest.  When you can feel your weight coming into your butt if you're sitting, and your feet if you're standing, then take this journey.  Imagine that you are dropping a pebble into a very deep pool of water, and that you are going to follow it as it falls through the deepening blue.  Close to the surface, the surrounding color is light blue.  As the pebble descends, the blue becomes darker and darker, until the pebble comes to rest on the bottom in total blackness.  You come to rest with it.  Begin to notice what you notice in this new space.  It is dark, and boundless.  There is no thing in it, yet there is a sense of emptiness and fullness at the same time.  You are safe and at peace, with no sense of needing anything at all.  Rest here, and recognize that this is your True Self, the Space of your Heart (as in the heart of the matter).  This space, this emptiness, is at the core of everything, and is the space that surrounds everything, when we are centered in it.  It has no words, no criticism, no blame.  To stay in it, let go of thinking (if you're in it, you probably already have), feeling, time and space...just notice what you notice, if anything.

When you're ready to try something else, bring in something that has been troublesome, and let there be plenty of space around it.  Don't try to fix it or change it in any way.  It is fine, exactly the way it is.  See it clearly, from all sides.  What is it like, to see this person or situation, from this clear space?  The space itself is transformative, so don't be surprised if what you're regarding starts to change.  The key is, don't DO anything.  Let the space handle it.  Your role is "interested witness."

When you can bring yourself to look at something previously unseen, the need for a wall disappears, and what shows up instead is a bridge....A bridge to peace, to love, to full cognizance, and no fear.

So this is the core of my spiritual activism:  May the fearful be soothed, may the hungry be fed, may the homeless be housed. I may not be the one who performs those actions, but I will definitely be one of those who create the space for it to happen.  And without a different space than the atmosphere of fear and loathing, no real change is possible.

HAMILTON and the Angel of America

I've been wondering for awhile about the best way to "participate" with the election madness without getting sucked into a mental/emotional place that I don't want to even experience, much less spread around.  I normally wouldn't bother with the idea of participation; I'd just avoid the whole mess, go to the polls and vote, and put my attention elsewhere.  Except now, I'm seeing it differently.  It's not good enough to avoid the hysteria....I'd rather find and offer a stance that is more likely to produce what I want: peace, upliftment, and a vibrational frequency that will expand my sense of well-being....and then share that stance.

It's kind of interesting to me that "peace" now includes having a sense of purpose, and acting on it...it's also interesting that I'm no longer satisfied to segregate my awareness of the election, to put it in a room by itself where it can be safely ignored....

I'd rather be seeing it with the same open curiosity that I bring to what I'm happy to focus on, which for now is collaboration with unseen beings who are available for partnership.  Guides, Angels, the Masters, Teachers and Loved Ones of the Akashic Records, the Sidhe...it's a big world out there, with a lot of help that is available for the asking...or perhaps I should say, with a lot of partnership that is available.

The difference between "help" and "partnership" has to do with how I see myself.  Do I have some strength of my own?  And am I willing to use it?  Or am I thinking that I have nothing worthwhile, and the subtle beings have it all?  I've learned a lot from reading David Spangler's writings ( Conversations with the Sidhe, and Subtle Worlds: An Explorer's Field Notes), largely about how important it is to value my sovereignty and agency as a human being.  Yes, I came here to learn, but I don't have to make myself into an entirely empty vessel in order to do that. So now what?

In a recent Gathering in Tivoli, I decided that it was crucially important to read from Spangler's most recent Views from the Borderland, yr 6, vol 2, (available by subscription only, from lorian.org), because he was writing about the Angel of America...

All human groups...attract some kind of overlighting spirit, usually part of the angelic line of evolution.  The function of such a being is to work with the humans within its care as a group to advance their evolution.  How successful such a spirit may be at accomplishing this depends on many factors, including its own level of experience and the openness and willingness--and love-- of the humans with whom it is working.  It is quite possible for a human group to create obstructions and boundaries that prevent such an overlighting being from doing its work, just as it's possible for a group of humans to come into a deep and profound collaboration with its angelic companion. (p.4)

And from one of Spangler's subtle colleagues:

There are three major ideas which the Angel is fostering within the field of life that is the United States.  These are Sovereignty and the power of agency, freedom, and the ability to collaborate across differences in order to create wholeness....The United States came into being to be a place where all three ideas could be fostered in a deliberate and democratic manner, thereby accelerating their development and embodiment.  It is the Angel of America's task to help this happen.  In so doing, it works primarily with collective energies, though it can certainly inspire or overlight specific individuals if they attune to it, and if their lives offer an opportunity to advance the expression of these three ideas. (pp. 10-11)

Spangler got to talking about how we might align with the Angel--by attuning to the land, or through history and symbol (our founding documents, or the Gettysburg Address, or the American flag, the Liberty Bell, etc)--and I got the idea, but I couldn't get in...

I've never been a fan of American history, exactly.  My sense of all the symbols of America is that they're empty, or worse, distorted.  I remember a conversation I had with my then-husband...we were looking a houses, and I mentioned that I was put off by houses that had American eagles on the front.  Alan wanted to know why, so I said, "If you were looking for people who were broad-minded, open to new thoughts, creative, inventive, etc, would you go to a house that had an eagle on it?"  Even though we almost never saw anything the same way, he had to agree....

So if there has been a distortion of the symbols, it probably runs deeper than that.  Something has gotten old, stuck, and empty, and I bet I'm not the only one who feels it.  Which means we have to get in touch with the aliveness of the American Dream...not the media version that has diminished the dream into a frantic hunt for possessions and status , but the real thing...what the Angel is here to nurture: sovereignty and agency, the ability to make your life as you want to---freedom, to be yourself and be of value---and the ability and willingness to collaborate across differences to foster wholeness.  We have an amazing opportunity here to do that, which gets lost in the shuffle of daily living.

As I was reading to my Gathering, I suddenly remembered Hamilton, the hip-hop musical that burst on the scene like a super-nova.  I started talking about how it is the perfect story of America's beginnings, complete with Hamilton the immigrant, who made his life and the Treasury system out of his own intelligence, and Lin-Manuel Miranda who created the musical out of his fascination with and connection to Alexander Hamilton.  Fabulous exciting music, and lyrics, and multi-racial casting, all designed to get us excited about our country, and wow!

As I was talking, I felt the magnitude of the huge multi-faceted reach of Miranda, and Hamilton, reaching toward...what?...toward the best we could be as a country.  My heart opened, and tears came, and I was Connected!

"Hamilton"--Go to YouTube, the whole score is there, and you can see the poetry slam at the White House when Miranda introduced it.  PBS just showed a special on it.  The cast is doing programs with schools, so there's a bunch of kids who are being introduced to our history in a way that makes sense to them....The whole thing is magnificent!  And for me it was a straight shot to the Angel of America.....

I'm sure that as much as we need a more productive focus now, before the election, it will be twice as important after the election.  No matter what happens, there's going to be dissatisfaction.  I want the highest and best for my country.  I want to align with the Angel of America, to live and teach the principles it fosters.  I want to keep pointing towards whatever we can do to bring that to pass.

Spangler says: ...what I am after is to attune to the felt sense of the country....What is the spirit of the country, and how does the felt sense of that Spirit live in me, in my body, in my feelings, in my mind?
Once I have this felt sense in my body and I feel attuned in myself to the spirit of my country, then I reach out in my mind and heart for the overlighting Angel who is the spiritual core of that felt sense.  But at the same time, standing in this felt sense and in my own Sovereignty, I also send out love to my environment as a blessing to my country.  For in so doing, I am taking an inner action equivalent to the actions the Angel takes in also holding the country in love and blessing.  I am sharing the task.  I am creating resonance.
Once I have in body and mind the felt sense of what it is like to be in resonance with the Angel of my country, I can attune to that at any time.  As I go about my work, as I travel about in my car, as I meet fellow citizens or visitors to my country, I can attune to the felt sense of the Angel and from that inner place, send forth a blessing. (pp. 27-28).

So for me, it has started with Hamilton.  Please find what does it for you, reach to the Angel, and love what you see around you.  Resonate high.

Living in 5-D

I've had some thoughts about what it takes to live in the higher dimensions that seem to be coming in now....In no particular order:

  • Let go of your mind and its activities as the only possibility for effective living.  Let go of judging, defining, ascribing meaning, relying on linear time, and "knowing."  Dropping your awareness into the heart space will make this easier, as none of that stuff exists there.....
  • Recognize and accept the experience of being in the heart space...and that it is part of you.
  • Ask, and allow yourself to receive....So, ask, experience having what you ask for, and let go.
  • Treasure connection in all forms:  with people, places and things; with animals and nature; with your own abilities and gifts; with the ability to receive and treasure the gifts that others have.
  • Give freely....Money, time, attention, love....Flirt with the world!
  • Be open to new possibilities...Dropping your awareness into the heart space makes it easy to let go of what you are habituated to.  In that big space, there's more room for new possibilities.
  • Find a way to anchor your experience, in the heart space and in normal life.  Write it down, speak it to someone, bring it through every cell in your body.  Make your "unreal" experiences real to yourself.  If you can't put it into words, you can't own it.
  • Use your imagination as a receiver.  Allow information to come to you.  Learn to tell the difference between "receiving" and "making it up."  The difference is to allow.....

I'm sure there's more, but this is what I have right now....